THE WRONG PICK

I was in my living room when I suddenly heard a knock on my door. Aside the fact that I wasn’t expecting anyone, having a visitor at that hour of the night was the last of the two hundred lists on my mind. I stood sluggishly

“Who is that?” I asked

“Jin” he answered softly

That was it. I braced up and not knowing where the strength came from, I started tidying things up. I spotted my undies thrown at the corner of the living room, and in a swift, I tossed it under the three sitters. 

It would only take a witch to figure it out from there. Jin, Oh Jin…… Jin was the guy I had wished for all my life. 

Watching him take a stride to his expensive car everyday gave me bumps on my skin. He lived across my house and never for once did I have the chance to talk to him extensively.

It gladdened my heart each time he came home alone. How could someone be that successful and handsome but still will not have ladies, I mean hot ladies to flock around him. Should I call the ladies blind, or Jin not having the time for them? As far as I was concerned, I liked him and at my unguarded hour, I fell in love.

Before you have a funny idea of me, you do not need to look at me twice before you conclude that I am a very beautiful lady, my major foe had been insecurity and I really don’t know why. I have lost nothing less than six relationship with good and committed guys but as a result of my insecurities, I lost them all.

 THREE MONTHS AGO

I worked for myself so to say and I would say its a great thing to do. I could control my time and monitor my energy but then Men- I never got a better chance of staying. The last relationship was with Pedd who had gone as far as introducing me to his parents but then I was always checking his phone to see who called and what message was sent to who. 

He got very frustrated and then called it off with me. That was the last of it. Then I moved to Kinwels Street  to make a new life, I was just settling down and then Jin happened. My regular practice was to watch him from my window, walking graciously towards his car. One of those days, he caught me and  I had to smile in spite of myself. If only the ground could make way for me, trust me I would have gladly jumped in. 

Since then, I avoided him vehemently only for me to sit next to him in his car. That morning,  I started my car but it wouldn't start and in the process of struggling and hitting the wheels, I heard a tap on my wind shield and who was there looking down at me with concern, Jin...

"Whatever happened to your car"?. He asked sweetly

Halleluyah, halleluyah, hallelujah, halleluyah, ha-lle-lu-yah. That was the sound reverberating in my head. The second tap drove me back to reality. 

"Oh thanks, it won't start".I stammered ...

I was in my living room when I suddenly heard a knock on my door. Aside the fact that I wasn’t expecting anyone, having a visitor at that hour of the night was the last of the two hundred lists on my mind. I stood sluggishly

“Who is that?” I asked

“Jin” he answered softly

That was it. I braced up and not knowing where the strength came from, I started tidying things up. I spotted my undies thrown at the corner of the living room, and in a swift, I tossed it under the three sitters. 

It would only take a witch to figure it out from there. Jin, Oh Jin…… Jin was the guy I had wished for all my life. 

Watching him take a stride to his expensive car everyday gave me bumps on my skin. He lived across my house and never for once did I have the chance to talk to him extensively.

It gladdened my heart each time he came home alone. How could someone be that successful and handsome but still will not have ladies, I mean hot ladies to flock around him. Should I call the ladies blind, or Jin not having the time for them? As far as I was concerned, I liked him and at my unguarded hour, I fell in love.

Before you have a funny idea of me, you do not need to look at me twice before you conclude that I am a very beautiful lady, my major foe had been insecurity and I really don’t know why. I have lost nothing less than six relationship with good and committed guys but as a result of my insecurities, I lost them all.

 THREE MONTHS AGO

I worked for myself so to say and I would say its a great thing to do. I could control my time and monitor my energy but then Men- I never got a better chance of staying. The last relationship was with Pedd who had gone as far as introducing me to his parents but then I was always checking his phone to see who called and what message was sent to who. 

He got very frustrated and then called it off with me. That was the last of it. Then I moved to Kinwels Street  to make a new life, I was just settling down and then Jin happened. My regular practice was to watch him from my window, walking graciously towards his car. One of those days, he caught me and  I had to smile in spite of myself. If only the ground could make way for me, trust me I would have gladly jumped in. 

Since then, I avoided him vehemently only for me to sit next to him in his car. That morning,  I started my car but it wouldn't start and in the process of struggling and hitting the wheels, I heard a tap on my wind shield and who was there looking down at me with concern, Jin...

"Whatever happened to your car"?. He asked sweetly

Halleluyah, halleluyah, hallelujah, halleluyah, ha-lle-lu-yah. That was the sound reverberating in my head. The second tap drove me back to reality. 

"Oh thanks, it won't start".I stammered ... 

He bent slightly to and then made his gaze back to my face. It was at that point I discovered he was actually sizing me up and whatever his conclusion was, never was obvious on his countenance and then I  breezed the thought in my head, only in my head before it gets on my head and then he spurred me out of my reverie..

"Would you mind I drop you?" That was about the third time he would say that but I only thought it was in my head not until I i realized that he was standing close to me. How and when I got out of the car and there standing close to his was a mirage to me but then all that can be fixed in my quite time; that was if I would have one again. 

"Oh yeah, thanks, but... hope it won't be much of a stress to you and considering the fact that you are not going towards my axis..." I stammered.

"Don't stress your mind on that" He said with his hand finding its way to my shoulder. 

That was the last I remembered . I opened my eyes gradually only to find him staring at me. 

"Where am I". I asked faintly. He smiled at me and then I managed to reciprocate. 

"You passed out but at the look of things you look better. And to answer your question, you are in my living room". He said calmly

That sounded to me like there is a bomb blast and that I just lost my parents. I struggled to my to feet and raced towards what I supposed was the entrance. I knew he was right behind me and for me to open the door, I found myself looking into his bed room. The soft breath I felt on my cape made me knew he was right behind me. I lost it completely and that time the second fall was into his arms. 

" I might have to name you- Fallen Angel". His head bent on mine, I could choke. 

I was acting too foolish and hated the fact that he was so calm about it. I had read too many Mills and Booms and to say one was playing out on me was more irritating that having a wet clothe on, on one’s menstruation. I had to slap myself back to reality and then he lips came down on mine. 

Stop!!! will you stop this madness before ... My thought came short when he started unbuttoning my shirt. and then....

"I guess I am  at your work place Miss..." He asked politely.

"Miss Sont... yea that's my name. Sont." Sont!!! Come back to life. I screamed at myself. I had been so disillusioned for the past thirty minutes of the drive thinking I had fainted. One bitter truth about me was that I never learnt from my mistakes and I prayer I not leave myself with an indelible mark all in the name of love. I stepped out of the car and bid him bye. All through at work for that day, it was from one reverie to the other. I had loads of files waiting to touched by me but all I did was to fantasize and stare at the files.

THE HEAT NOW

"Sont, I'm sorry, I choose my mom over you". 

To say for years, I had to fight Jin on this same cancerous issue that has not only destroyed the relationship but brought it to an abrupt end. Jin wasn't that man that swept me off my feet and he sure wasn't the man I'd love to spend the rest of my life with. 

No wonder he remained single and it’s so glaring, he sure was a wrong pick...